nostAlgia

    Was recently watching a movie on friendship, and the nostalgic factor which was linking/unifying to add color to their relationship even after a gulp of time was an amalgamated combination of fantasy/experiences linked to pleasure accomplished through sexual conversations/lighter moments with alcoholic drinks and a passionate/addicted desire within to be submerged into this neutral nectar combinations, just in the right balance/combination/proportion in a perfect blend, put very openly as nothing small/large but just right. The reality often being to be drawn/sucked into this aura of proportional traditional dreams/dramas which is very often a taboo/black hole for the majority characterized to be right/civilized ethically/morally. Experiences and circumstances of a person/personality will have different dimensional interpretations/stories linked to this cock-tale often called as nostalgic memories. A casual traditional sentence linked to is often, what is life without submerging self through these paths, at least once in a lifetime. Wish, cos! had those days back now. With a passionate note, to be not judgmental, where else this aura will be diluted/polluted and lead to misunderstandings. How can unconditional imbibed love ever sow any seeds of mistrust/jealousy/hatred to evolve out. The root of/for every submerged fear leading to a fearful approach towards any circumstance in once encounter, is the lack of understanding/awareness/empathy of the moment. One becomes fearful when one is not exposed/experienced dealing with such situations/encounters. Its very often like dealing/reacting to an encounter with a reptile/insect/wild animal with no past experience/training with. And to brand all as dangerous is the common instinct coded within.
   To a very mature time tested statement put forward by one of my most revered actor, "what is the point in saying to a young calf, why are you so excited jumping and running around most of your time". The sacrifices, patience endured time will often brings to the shore a story/experience sharing/telling/cherishing a life time as memories. The enchanted/adventurous stories would very often be the taboos enforced morally/ethically/lawfully within the prism of the societies, very much survived cunningly/unsuspectingly becomes  a nostalgic experience for some called blessed/memorable moment/time, and often crave at a juncture to be slipping back again into that aura, like a refreshing cup of beverage. The hidden submerged fact being, very much the guilt/hidden pleasure of having accomplished the taboo unnoticed, eventually with circumstances brings in a sense of artificial social discipline/fake mask linked to a word called 'self sacrifice' to invariably later reflect into various woven relationships in once compartmental/commitmental attributes undertaken. Very often it is associated with social/family circumstances to behave modestly/cunningly behind a cowardice/sheepish undetected mask. Society portrays/depicts these inbuilt natural attributes to a wolf inside the sheep's hide/appearance. The very essence/irony of most nostalgia, linked to fantasy or so called a faithful lovable relationship, has a fine boundary drawn on the limitation/definition of this relationship, one openly/socially would/will be admiring/praying  to a love God/Goddess, but even a strong devotee would rather prefer the God/Goddess to be at one arm distance, when related to their close interpersonal relationship, very often to highlight the practical shallow depth of this aura of liberty of so called blind trust/faith. Cherishing the words 'kindness/understanding is not an act,its a lifestyle' and 'the less you respond to negative people,the more peaceful your life will become' summing up finally to  'judge not' else/and also be prepared mentally/emotionally  to be weighed identically on/to the same scale, while encountering/passing across similar circumstance/situation offered knowingly/unknowingly sometimes by once loved ones(children,siblings,spouse,parents)/admired associates(friends,colleagues,relatives,neighbors) is the byproduct/irony delivered by this catalyst  byproduct, called nostalgic reaction/nature at largE.

   

hOly

    The word 'holy' was reinforced to my awareness today in the church, by a passionate cop turned to vocational stewardship, now serving his lord/guide within the well established nomenclature Christ/Jesus. Trying to entangle together all the scattering flocks together, towards his mission/vision encapsulated into a single word called unConditional "love". A word now very often used in different connotations to fit into the circumstances, diluted in its intrinsic value/purpose to gain verbal authority over the ignorant, towards its literal intention. The word 'holy' and 'love' in the process often sprinkled on  family/relationships/work ethics and so on, to evolve out as holistic approach, even used now casually in terms of  business management. So what is 'holy', to me now it shines out to be 'holding out loyalty yarn' to be entangled together into the ball of righteousness/selflessness/truthfulness. Thus the word love,be now then broken up into 'living on virtuous ends' . Which is often easy said than done, as very rightly pointed out today by the cop turned priest, 'Dear people in Christ, its easy for me to channelize my potential to built a huge church/work towards erecting innumerable concretes,statues,pillars,walls in/on his name, but dear people, its very difficult to instill  the virtue of love into any, the sole purpose of my mission/vision now called vocation by many'. So very true, why does God the creator need any of this, when in his avatar/incarnation had clearly stipulated over his desired priority clearly in black/white. To be seeking holiness is to remind self that positive thoughts are not enough, there have to be positive feelings accompanied by positive/tangible actions to mere abstract words. Where in the process forgiveness will surpass suffering/Sharing will surpass possession/Caring will surpass imbibed prejudice. Being shown/proven by God himself within the limitation/capacity of humanly flesh/blood defining the very essence of holiness.
    The word holy sacraments/commandments/guidelines thus finally encapsulated into a single word called love, often breaking the lunatic stereotype of  verbal/enacted/tuned postural simplicity, displayed now very often by the trained educated,polished,refined self proclaimed enlightened/righteous  as translucent postures/words hiding often behind or within ignorant vanity/arrogance/possessiveness. How to simplify than to the shining tempting outer appearance of a bright yellow lemon, on pealing off its/once shell/intentions(comfort zone) to squeeze/seek then to taste/experience its/once true nature/content within, to the practical economics often brought up/trained towards, thus to determining the imbibed quality of once 'then' submerged/hidden holiness within to the 'then' needy demanding circumstance/scenario. Some could be linked to a kind word with deserving honest, sincere advice/timely assistance in need or even a want/spare once time in physical presence when deemed vital.. all will sprout out to time, lessons to be taken as a bench mark to once true substance treasured inside. Eventually failures/success from self/others actions/reactions to the created/evolved circumstance can be taken as a lesson to refine/polish and grow/transform irrespective of the age. The fact being without an unreasonable excuse, where there is pure/deserving ignorant or aspiring submerged thirst,the mind will/should expands and becomes a vast pool of knowledge bank to act/react promptly to the then challenging opportunity(s). Thus to add some literal value, towards oversimplified passionately used words  as holy/lovE.